Life Statement: Jesus is King

2008-08-10T23:06:00.002+08:00

After the sermon on water walking, the very first test that came to me was on the same day i said i would wanna do it! To have a bigger heart for the people, this heart is called Compassion. But i failed. but i'm still caught in His grace.

As i was going home with sharon and lionel from Yingxian early birthday, along the train line somewhere there was this indian man who entered the same train cubicle as i am. He looked demolished, shattered and whatever word you can describe, totally distraught as he look at probably a photo in his black wallet. Total remorse covered his face, i sat there at my seat, being filled entirely already with the compassion of Christ, but where was the movement? As i sat there on my seat, frozen by my pride of being afraid of embarrassment, i rationalized and gave in to the assumption that he needed to be alone.

My eyes kept looking at him and the 1 empty seat beside him. It was as if God was pushing my eyes and telling me to move. once again, i didn't dare. The indian man didn't shed a tear, but as he kissed the photo a few times and looking up, it seemed like he offered a prayer or something. As we approached Tiong Bahru MRT, he alighted the train.

There and then i have already failed. i dunno until now, but the empty seat was a sign. and i walked to this carriage with the 3 empty seats for the 3 of us was for a reason, yet i was too afraid to move. i was afraid of being embarrassed. As i sit at home and ponder, i repented for being disobedience, it was a step of faith, a chance God gave to test my promise to Him. I know, there will be more, and i need prayers to humble myself and throw a compassionate arm around a stranger in need of a simple word of encouragement.

God is good, He is so gracious and patient with me. I really need to move, i need to not be afraid, i need to be like Jesus, selfless and loving to those in need. This big heart which Jesus has, this big heart i need, this big heart called Compassion.

A Father who knows best

2008-04-21T19:20:00.004+08:00

My Faithful Father
Enduring Friend
Your tender mercy's like a river with no end
It overwhelms me
Covers my sin
Each time i come into Your presence
I stand in wonder once again

Your grace still amazes me
Your love still a mystery
Each day i fall on my knees
Your grace still amazes me

O patient Saviour
You make me whole
You are the Author and the Healer of my soul
What can i give You?
What can i say?
I know there's no way to repay You
Only to offer You my praise

It's deeper
It's wider
It's stronger
It's higher than anything my eyes can see

The Grace of God rests upon me, the 25 years that i have lived on earth so far has strengthen my faith in God, and especially in the past year, by a thousand mile. God has always, always watched over my life, very carefully molding me into His likeness. Who else can love me this much that a God who sustains the universe in the palm of His hand would come down to earth to die for a wretch like me? Where else can i go? His love is deeper, stronger and wider.

Thank You Lord, so much that You have poured into me, so much more i have to give. Because of His Saving Grace, i can now stand and walk this earth to declare His promises. And yea it won't let go of me. Never let me go Father.

Blessed? Pampered?

2008-02-29T14:49:00.002+08:00

When you are Blessed, don't water down it by saying that you are pampered. When you are pampered, don't call it a blessing.

Why i say that, because times where you are Blessed by God, you don't willingly accept it but you say that you're pampered. That's in some ways belittling yourself. True that you might say you don't deserve it, but your thankful heart does not come out of gratefulness but rather out of your own self pity and we don't need to pity ourselves. We are not beggars when we are in His Kingdom.

When you are pampered, don't say it's a blessing. The fact that you take on the state of pitifulness and saying that everyone gives you something its a blessing. True it is, but you must get rid of being conditioned to being pampered. Because you might 1 day not get that 'blessing' and it then becomes an addiction to want a blessing. An expectation is formed, in the wrong way.

The Stand

2008-01-23T14:37:00.000+08:00

So i walk upon salvation
Your Spirit alive in me
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand

So what can i say
What can i do?
To offer this heart O Lord,
Completely to You

(tears trickled down my face)

when i sing this song with my guitar, i could feel the presence of God around me, i was moved, God was near, and i know there and then, the exchange must happen. now that You're near, i will offer devotion. when you fully understand His grace in Your life and His promises for you, you can't help but stand amazed.

So i stand with arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all.

2008-01-01T21:59:00.000+08:00

the new year. 2008. and i'm gonna be 25. that's shocking number. i could never imagine that i would come this far. His grace and love is over me! it's evident! thank You God for being so faithful! i will always want to spend the crossover to new year with my church. it's so meaningful, hearing testimonies shared, praying and thanking God and have Holy Communion. where else can i go? 1 day in His courts is better than a 1000 days elsewhere. my 1st min hour moments are with my family. i love it! even my first breakfast is with my close ones. thank you all! and hope we go through this year together as well! we will grow and like the song i kept singing last night, "i will try my best!" kambate all!

Generations

2007-12-11T12:55:00.001+08:00

Destination = Destiny + Nation

Rev. George Annadorai is the man God has chosen to raise people and youths like you and me to our nation Singapore destiny. What God plans for Singapore MUST come to past and as Christian of this age, it is not my leader's responsibility to fulfil God's plans for Singapore but it is ALSO my responsibility to make Singapore a Hub to our neighbours. Yes this is our call, either we embrace it since our father's generation never did, or God will once again pass us by our entire generation and wait for another few more who will then be more hungry.

The very fact is, this current generation is most hungry than any in the past 3 generations or more. God is here, God is near, it's time to rise to our post and not focussing on the things that mean nothing but self-glorifying. It is up to us to save the world. Sound like an episode of Heroes, but like Heroes, we are given special talent, either we use it to help people, or we use it to abuse the people. Our talents and abilities enables us to tear the Giants down. It enables us, not helps us. Therefore, use it because it belongs and it's given to you. then we, the saviours can bring light and the blind will be free! the deaf will be free! the darkness flees!! and teaching them to obey ALL the things i commanded you.

Don't just wanna stand here and shout Your praise, or walk away and forget Your name....

2007-10-22T16:58:00.000+08:00

i don't care what they say about me
it's alright, it's alright
i don't care what they think about me
it's alright, they'll get it one day

i love You, i'll follow You
You are my, my life
i will read my bible and pray
i will follow You all day!

All day, all day now, all day!

and if anyone around can see
just how good You've been to me
and all my friends that don't know You
i pray that You would save them too!

2007-10-15T16:55:00.000+08:00

Sabbath:

a day of reflection - a day of rest - a day of reconcilation - a day of repentance - a day of joy - a day of thanksgiving - a day of refuelling - a day of comfort - a day of worship - a day of no work - a day of fellowship - a day of trading - a day of peace - a day of meditation - a day of the week - a day for prayer - a day for You and me - a day of Sabbath

Home

2007-10-02T23:02:00.000+08:00

i love our church, it's a place called Home because imagine not many churches are still open till 9pm and most of the time for us even if we're lost or if we've nowhere to go, we can always go "Home". There is this family setting which is our foundation that allows youth like me to walk in and out, besides how many youth walks or stays in church at 9pm?

i am grateful for Kum Yan, being here for 11 years already have gave me so much that i am indebt, yet it's a good thing. Nicole led worship just on sunday and i feel more and more closer to God, and that after what Pastor Sam shared about coming into His courts with thanksgiving and praise did make ready whenever i step into the Living Room.

You cannot hold back your praises, because if you do, then God isn't worthy to give thanks for, and slowly we become grateful people for the moment, not always. Therefore, still my heart and capture my being, for the Lord our God is faithful throughout ALL generations and not just 2 or 3 generations. ALL. how many times can you use that word on human beings? God, my all in all.

2007-09-12T16:10:00.000+08:00

Many times we need convincing in our lives that God is true. Yet many times we need reminders that it was He that was nailed to the cross to die for our sins so that we may be set free to experience life and not be bound to our wrongdoings and just blindly following. For as Jesus died, the Holy Spirt has come alive, therefore rejoice to a new way of living as new testament Christians for He has done yet another event to actually save and bridge the gap that we ourselves separate.

God is the Saviour King. Everytime man fails by the laws and ways He sets, God doesn't condemn man but find ways to lead us back to Him. It's like He is really trying to be with us, and sometimes for us we're not even trying to be with Him. It's sad that the love isn't reprocicated.

....and You came to my rescue.
....and You found me at the very same place.
....and You saw me.
....i am free!

i've been having papers almost every week and sometimes it's crazy, but in my walk, i think i'm alright, sometimes i do feel stretched but because God is MORE THAN ENOUGH, that's why i can outlast, not last only. thank You Jesus, and those who prays for me everytime.

2007-08-28T23:18:00.000+08:00

Ernest Goh is in a better shape. yes he did. it was raining heavily as sam sharon and myself made our way to NUS to have lunch with matt. we din know that lionel shawnPang and taffy were gonna be there too. haha cool we ate at the new Arts Canteen. well my shoes and bottom part of my jeans were wet and man why did i bother wearing jeans out. haha after spending quite a few hours there, we went to NUH finally to see ernest, May just arrived NUH as well to join us. on the way to his ward we saw Astrid and she too was working there and joined us to visit him. haha so cool how our bus got filled with people so fast.

Ernest mom was so friendly, first time talking to her actually and yea from her response at times, i realised that she is godly too. it is so encouraging to know the people before us are like that. yea then astrid popped a question to us asking if we wanna donate blood, and we were so enthu in donating, haha so we went along to the Blood Bank. the funny thing was, Lionel had both his arms pricked and blood drawn, but it got jam and then they couldn't get him to donate already. the rest except me had been to countries that stated in the restricted areas and so can't donate except me, the nice guy. lol lionel kenna cheated and pricked and was bandaged both arms. ahhahaha

anyway yes had dinner with Yongxian Alwyn and ShawnPang to celebrate Barney birthday in advance at swensen, nice time we managed to talk and i shared abt my past. then the rest of the gang that didn't eat with us and pui too joined us for dessert. to end the day, i am really sleepy now, my threshold is really low for going out and yes i am heading to bed right now, goodnight world! goodnight Jesus!

Jesus Camp

2007-08-22T18:20:00.000+08:00

dinner taste different nowadays at home. ever since the new maid came, i kinda miss the thai cooking style and food which i use to have. anyway today seem to pass by so fast and i don't really know what i did except for reading my Disciple work, yes we're starting again! haha finally and i'm thankful it's here.

i'm wondering, how come the discovery channel isn't really a discovery one. like i look at the timetable, nothing that interesting leh. ah well. anyway i'm gonna catch this movie tmr with Ben Soh and Sharon, it's called "Jesus Camp".actually we just want to hang out with our good friend Ben and since he is going back on Aug 30, i think it's better that we hang out. Besides, the show is M18, so i'm guessing some of my other friends can't watch. hehe no offence, just that if you could, we would watch together.

anyway that's beside the point, i'm feeling weird kuz i've finished my papers, yet i feel not so free. like i'm thinking of what to do next or something. good or bad, well school has definately taken its toll on me. Been listening a lot to the lyrics of the new album "Saviour King" by Hillsong and the lyrics are just incredible. Heartfelt, anointed. Above all, i'm tested to go to a new level of faith in my journey with God. I've gotta see that i'm beyond myself, i was made for greatness. and we all are so don't say you're nothing and you can't do, you're nothing yes, but by His grace and because of God, we're made for eternity! don't belittle God, exalt and lift Him highER.

2007-08-13T01:02:00.001+08:00

This tonton will never fail to make me laugh. his nick is the best.

Happy Birthday Singapore!
Choose a gift:
1) More Haze
2)A new nickname for little red dot
3)Me as Prime Minister

with friends like this, how can our world be so dull.
Man Utd drew with Reading at Home. haha so much of merv trying to spite the rest saying his team will win.

2007-08-10T15:28:00.000+08:00

i got so bored of studying i decide to do this. and from this i realised i have a lot of christian song on my playlist(thankfully) haha random but quite funny as well. Here it is:-

RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWNNO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOUSAY?- Empty Me
WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?- O Worship the King
WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?- All of my days
HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?- In my place
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?- Everliving God
WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?- One Thing
WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?- Run
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?- Make believe Jesus
WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?- Fly
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIES?- Know you more
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?- More
WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?- I can only imagine
WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?- Back Here
WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?- Glory Defined
WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?- Finally found...(omg i have this song)
WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?- Lord of Lords
WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?- Need You Here
WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?- For You
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?- Beautiful One
WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?- Love Song
WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?- Perfect

Embrace training!

2007-08-01T17:36:00.000+08:00

Wherever situation you have been placed in, know that it isn't a time to complain or giving thanks for your current position. But rather, unless the Lord takes you out of there, accept it as a phase of training, for every minute and every pain in there, will accomplish what is needed of you. So if i am complaining about where i am now and telling God where i should be instead, then my order of authority is messed up. Therefore get it right, and God doesn't torture, God knows what's best for us individually, embrace training!

Studying Java now for my paper next week. it's kinda messy and all but i'm getting concepts in and i'm grateful and hopefully be able to pass this module which i personally don't like in particular. anyway wednesday is like that for me. think after dinner i'm gonna grab some icecream from Stiff Chilli. yummers!

hope you all have been doing good yourself. everyone is kinda busy and maybe just maybe, we could meet up for a nice dinner. cheers gang!

2007-07-31T15:18:00.000+08:00

The precious blood of Jesus Christ redeems
Forgiven, i'm alive, restored, set free
Your majesty resides inside of me
Forever i believe
Forever i believe

Arrested by Your truth and righteousness
Your grace has overwhelmed my brokenness
Convicted by Your spirit, led by Your Word
Your love will never fail
Your love will never fail

I know You gave
the world Your only Son for us
To know Your Name
to live within the Saviour's love
You took my place
Knowing He'd be crucified
And You loved, You loved
A people undeserving

2007-07-24T19:43:00.001+08:00

I got this new song by Hillsong and its really nice when it comes to the bridge and chorus. enjoy the song and hope the lyrics you read be sung out from your spirit within.

2007-07-21T22:37:00.000+08:00

ah yes! reservice and capt ball over! what a 2 weeks it has been with my army friends and running into the jungle getting mozzies bites and drenched uniform, camoflaging our faces to hide our fair/tanned skin to blend with nature with a signal set that weighs 15kg.

anyway, i'm a little tired and tmr there's a wedding going on near church and i'm to be there. so many getting married. time flies and soon it'll be mine. hehe so glad i've cleared my IPPT window, now i dun have to do till next year. yayy!!

goodbye for good

2007-07-02T23:22:00.000+08:00

i really love the movie Transformers! it was way past my expectations. God, You're so creative and You gave men the ability to do so! and You're not stopping here, You continue to show more and more of Your greatness!

my granny's maid, who's faithfully served us for 24 years since i was born, is going back tmr morning back to Thailand for good. after playing, feeding and loving me for all these years, i couldn't help but gave her a hug and we teared but she knows that i'm ok with it. and i count it a privilege to have known her home and culture. my clothes and toys have gone to her kids, now may my love which i have received from God be in here and surface when she goes back to know that there is a God up there.

thank you auntie rian for all your years of love and faithfulness and even laughter.

what to say

2007-06-24T00:47:00.000+08:00

sweet! finished a 3000 word essay! i'm so glad! now got 2 programming and 1 2000 word essay, what to say? gg. LOL don't worry matt, not scaring you, it's just packed for me atm. anyway was so glad to catch movie on thurs evening with the gang. finally after a while. always enjoy hanging ard you guys and LGs. anyway today soccer match at Jalan Besar was nice! although i played there a few times already but i'm so happy to be able to have the rest play in that field. i mean come on, many young soccer lads would die to play there and some of us who aren't really a soccer fanatic gets to play there, what to say? lol thanks dad

1250am now and man my cheeks feels burnt from the blazing sun. its like i put blusher on, eee, and hope 'big' ally won't do the whatever to me. haha nicole's back and man do i miss her in person and also in guitar playing. lol Naruto fight scene is next week and Bleach is having fillers. i think its time for bed. can't wait for Big Hooha!

Father's Day

2007-06-17T21:36:00.000+08:00

'To-san" Day. and today's dance was especially for Father's Day, each of us are able to see our father looking at how we dance to show them that we love them very much and as much as we can do, dancing is a form of showing our appreciation. just that my dad wasn't there to watch me, all those years of dancing.

when Samuel Phun spoke today, my eyes were filled with tears, looking across to my brother on the other side, i couldn't hold back my feelings. i look at the fathers around, and how i wish my dad was in the house of God worshipping like 1 of us, passionately. Pastor Sam testimony is my encouragement, the pride of man will fall because with God, all things are possible. since '98 family camp till now, still praying that my dad will come to know the Lord.

Pots and Pans

2007-06-10T22:45:00.000+08:00

a conversation on the phone with my dad:

me: hi dad yes you called?
dad: son, how come you didn't help your brother down?
me: oh he has friends mah to bring him down?
dad: but he's your brother y'know?
me: yea i know, they'll bring him down today, who's gonna buy him lunch the whole of next week?

LOL gg ah...bet he never thought of it that way.

today Pastor Ed Pousson spoke about Pots and Pans, man was that so cool such revelation he got to deliver a message like that. and i know in all your minds you still remember the pot where Pastor Ed's mom spit inside. but that concept was really mind blowing!
Consecration for now, my one desire.

2007-06-02T16:29:00.000+08:00

Computer Security Assignment 1: Completed!

2000 words and actually i could write a lot more. but i had to concise it a little. JYC camp is coming up and i've gotta prepare some stuff myself too. i've been like out of camp duties for quite a while since dad doesn't allow this and that when i'm studying. but that's ok i'm not mad at him. just that inside my heart wants to serve.

anyway june is here means a few things. camps, birthdays, beach hooha and reservice in july! hahaha i've to sew my Singapore badge and Unit Badge on soon. oh man and my IPPT too. sigh i'm so good at procrastinating that. but i really need to. how? bah! hahahah

my 1 week of break is over just like that. brewing my work just to finish it today. and this is just 1 of the 4. oh yea. keep my feet above the water.

2007-05-26T23:38:00.000+08:00

Saturate Conference was really awesome! Yesterday we were challenged whether we will stand at our post as the Gatekeeper. amazing stuff like how you're called to that post yet you run away or you lead it without God but rallying pple with your own agendas and wrong attitude of wanting to achieve something, someplace. The King of Glory will only walk in if you stand there prayerfully with anticipation. so have you lost your post? where is the gatekeeper?

another one day was about 'The Shout!'. Pastor Jared Ming in the 2nd session mentioned about claiming the Shout that the devil robbed from us. Shout! like when joshua march round jericho. Shout! with Holy anger! Shout! in psalms it mentioned a lot. May the shout of earth be Your praise!

i love the chorus of this song and we sang it yesterday at the conference. i shall just put the chorus here.

Take my life

And that all i have to give

Take my world

Just inhabit all of it

Take my dreams

Make me assuredly Yours

God is bigger than...

2007-05-20T22:28:00.000+08:00

'Soap is everywhere, use it! God word is there, use it!! You may fall many times, but get up! Pray in tongues more! When you pray in tongues, the devil gets confused.' - Pastor Samuel Phun

seriously, he rocks! Pastor Sam came in, filled with the Holy Spirit and spoke a direct message to our hearts, well at least to mine. And i know that if i decide to lay back and neglect the Word of God even though i think i might not understand, but if i press in and ask God to speak in simpler terms to me, i will not miss the boat. i don't want to! i want to guard my life with the living Word.

Something inside is dying. Yes, it's called me. the art of losing myself. To live is Christ and to die is gain! to press on toward the prize! to love Him simply, from the inside out. Whoever desires to come after me, take up your cross and follow. it's just like that, stop putting yourself before God. start putting yourself to God. Cross over to the other side. Goodnight.

it's bacK!

2007-05-17T21:25:00.000+08:00

oh yes! this is finally back up! the things i wanted to post can now be up. haha i remember last friday cell, was amazing. the reason why God does miracles back in the older days was because He wanted to have that relationship with His children. Simply, wasn't to show how great He really is, but it's all for love. even in 2 chronicles 20 when the victory was won for King Jehosaphat, and God did it all for them, He was waiting with the angels in anticipation that we will not praise Him for the victory and go back to daily living, but to direct our hearts to God. In the verse 33, it said that the hearts were not directed back to Him.

Therefore miracles happen to those who are ready, those who believe and have their hearts directed to God. i can imagine His heart broken after doing a miracle. People go 'WOW' when they see miracles, means that they are in disbelief this such thing can happen. So if Christians go "WOW", means we don't believe God can do that? that's true.

and i shall end with this: Love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your strength!

Psalm 86:11

2007-05-06T23:37:00.000+08:00

Teach me Your way, O LORD; I will walk in Your truth; Unite my heart to fear Your name. - Psalm 86:11

today Uncle Mark came back after a very long time to speak to us. i really miss him and today i was slained. i hope i didn't scare the people beside me, but honestly, i feel a rise in my spirit. to do more than i can, my peers, my age people, to take on ministries, not that we're not in one. but to lead one entirely and take the burden of the ministry. Like doing chairperson for YC, or even give the direction for cell instead of always depending on ian or pastor to say something. i need to rise and i need to now! God hear me!! Satan fear me!!
' and the cry of my heart is to bring You praise from the inside out Lord my soul cries out!'

it's been a while since i went up for altar call to make such a decision. God, i know that even though i dunno how to entirely lead or pastor a ministry, i remember the days where i came to the altar as a teen to desire to be a leader, and even though i dunno how to do it, i went ahead kuz You told me and You said You would lead me. Now i come to the altar once again, not knowing what lies ahead, or even how to lead or do or step up to take ian and queenie's role, i know that like before i became a leader, You will lead me. all You're looking for is willing hearts, not talents.

Free

2007-05-05T23:16:00.000+08:00

i've decided to change song, my spirit is rising and i chose the song Free because that's what my spirit is feeling now, soring high! anyway this week went by kinda fast, it's already May and lotsa events are coming up, and so are meetings. haha, but today i really enjoyed myself, eating Island Creamery ice cream is still the best, one of the best, although i'm still unwell. but hey, God is great! and He gave man idea to make ice cream. let's hang out soon guys!(thurs gang)

anyway been playing with my guitar and i love it very much still. the sound, the wood, the smell, the softness of the strings. haha yes i'm in love with it, still! i can't wait to watch spiderman 3 on monday, i think Venom is a cool character in movie form, wanna see the technical abilities and the great art work and costume design as well. yea!!

2007-05-01T11:11:00.000+08:00

May DAY!!! Spiderman movie is out! but none of us is watching maybe kuz we feel it'll be crowded. some of the adults and YCers are playing badminton. and staying home isn't a bad idea. haha and i feel like rating the japanese BBQ near my place. the beef and chicken with the honey sauce is superb! but the cost, isn't at all.

my new modules have started and 1 of them is not easy though the modules are supposedly easier than last, well yea maybe. lotsa individual assignments so no group means less hassle in a way, don't have to wait for others.

She's 23!

2007-04-27T11:12:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Sharon!!! hope you read this and also like the present and card! hehe been sick this whole week and almost impossible for me to get out to do anything, let alone feast on anything nice. but good thing i have an understanding girlfriend who can postpone our dinner date to next week and not having it this week where i might be suffering if i were to go out and eat, coughing my lungs out and taming the temperature of my fever. thank you sharon!

at least today i feel much better than the last 2, now being able to eat a bit more and feeling fresher, guessed i've slept quite a lot this week, my moments of rest. i must learn how to acknowledge what God is doing each moment of my life rather then fighting against Him like a stubborn kid. therefore embrace each situation and ask God in every moment what is He teaching until you become so tuned that it becomes natural, like how Jesus knew later on every moment.

happy 24th birthday

2007-04-21T23:52:00.000+08:00

you know, when you have such a loving family who stands by you throughout the storms in your life which also requires you to give and open up to the family. amazing thing happens. God has definitely heard my prayer request of a guitar to own since i borrowed my friend's guitar up till now. and to my knowledge to 59 people contributed to this expensive guitar, it shows how much they all really love me, as in really.

lost for words, with all to say. THANK YOU ALL!!! you all have affirmed me in many ways and not that because i receive such an expensive gift means i'm well appreciated, but because you all really really want to make me feel appreciated and of course loved. i would come up to everyone individually to thank you all, it has really been a day to remember. i'm finally 24

so fast

2007-04-20T11:37:00.000+08:00

ok this week, this month is almost over already. many people are growing older this next 2 weeks even and i have received my 1st present from my granny, it's a piggy bank with $1 coins in it. haha guess this year of the pig is really special, i've never received anything like this before and it is unique. my granny still has surprises in her head, what a brilliant idea!

my brother has been trying to scare me these few days about dunno where my popeye will go and stuff. matt's not gonna be in town kuz he go diving, andy's in army and mervyn soon said that i'll like the gift he got for me. i think tonight i better be clothed tonight when i sleep. or even wear jeans just in case. or locking the room door might help. haha precaution measures, like i mention, i dunno how to respond to surprises if there are any. but well, gotta prepare for war.

(i'm analyzing too much, but i'm not expecting it, this may very well be the first) good luck tany.

24 and going

2007-04-16T15:19:00.000+08:00

first day of my break. and i've got only a week before my next 4 new module comes. looks like abit of programming and computer security. ah yea looking at it, will have a couple of full days. but quite excited though for new modules since got monotoneous from the previous modules. gotta prepare myself for that and also the sub paper (bah)

"24 this year and they are still have so much affection for one another, and it grows stronger throughout the years." haha something that ian was telling how close the guys, or guy rather in our church are. but for me, i know that i'll be growing up with them, and now 24, i've got like another 50 years at least with them. haha friendship that will last, binded by the love of God in His kingdom. that's probably why we should continue to remain close and encourage and help one another live this holy life prepared for us individually from God. rocks ya all!!

oh no!!

2007-04-13T12:46:00.000+08:00

AAARRRGGGHHH!!!!

i don't believe it!! well it's not my wrong actually, it's just that i didn't receive the email from school. BUT, aaarrgghhh!!! i miss my main paper which was at 10am today!!! and in the previous schedule is 2pm. no!!! well my friend called me and he said i sounded calm, like as though i was really waiting for the 2pm paper, i was!!

anyway haha oh well means that i have to study again probably for the sub paper, but i called and wrote in to say that it's unfair kuz i was not made mention to it. so see how it goes, well onto my last paper then. i got my pair of copper jeans from Levi's so woohoo!! at least it compensates my emotions too. hahaha although i'm not exactly an emo-guy. but well, no matter what, God deserves the highest praise! O Praise Him!!! He is Holy!! yyeeaahh!!! (back to study)

24

2007-04-11T19:28:00.000+08:00

readings, readings readings. i can't wait for saturday to come. means i would have finished my exams and i can go look at the bag which justin introduced to me http://www.timbuk2.com . showed sam and think it nice too, well at least i can customise the colour and it has in a way more variety. sweet! met sharon at her workplace today for lunch, boy with a nose in runny condition, it was a bad idea to step inside. bleh but went to see Levi's Copper Jeans with her after that, whoo it rocks and with my $100 voucher, with the last size 28, i have reserved it! lol yayy!! kuz the saleswoman mentioned, that the shipment for this comes in once only, after all sold then no more. so well sounded like it's limited. hee

anyway i'm getting sleepy already and it's 730pm. but i need to carry on my readings and memorizing formats too! friday is nearing, YC anniversary is coming! our first capt ball match is on the anniversary too! rocks man!! the catering i hope is the one at Sebastian wedding, if it's so, i'm gonna whack the Bread & Butter pudding. eat a bit of meat, then the pudding. hehe

ah well, it's the midweek. how are you all? andy's going into army tmr, and i hope we all wun go our separate ways so fast, hope to meet up once a week if possible when all you get so busy like Lionel in cooking, Matt when he goes uni, Andy baby during army, BenW studying maybe, the rest of the girls studying. hee i'm having my break soon!! and you all get busy, lol time flies. i'm 24 soon.

the toilet surprise

2007-04-09T23:10:00.000+08:00

as according to plan from another spontaneous birthday surprise planning, we managed to execute and scare andy in the guy's toilet. lol we would have done it on his birthday if wasn't for his early enlistment to army. but nevertheless we still manage to pull it off. haha andy i hope you enjoyed yourself also with a bunch of us hanging out with ya.

i realised also that i don't have many individual photos with some pple, like andy himself kuz when i was asked to give a photo of myself with him, i don't have any at all. maybe i should take more photos with everyone, hehe even more since i've bracersless! which mean pui won't disturb me that much either.

well anyway today i had a 120 MCQ exam paper and i took almost a min per question for the 1st 70 questions. but sped up as it was easier towards the end. having a heavy flu right now and my nose is so itchy from that saturday night. bleah. anyway i thank God for always watching over my life no matter what happens! and lastly, haiiz, dunno why the 2 lil girLs (miao and yn) keep thinking abt people's backside. nvm they still young must teach them not to 'think' so much abt it. lol

fry dey?

2007-04-07T01:02:00.000+08:00

ok, i got 'Tigered Kneed' now my right leg is slowing my pace down. haha friday seems weird when there i no cell, and it doesn't end my weekday. but still i'm glad that the week has past by so fast, and probably or hopefully my exams as well.

well today din particularly played well in the match mainly because of stamina and tiger kneed. haha but it's ok, i guess if i get my pace back up it should be better. short post today. kinda sleepy so heads up guys, we're gonna have Dawn service on sunday!! rocks!

2007-04-03T18:39:00.000+08:00

alright man! finally found this version of the song! woots! haha man i'm tired writing down the formulas already for tmr's paper, nope it's not cheating, it's stated in the exam. lol anyway yar wah i really can't wait for tmr's paper to be over now, doesn't seem that easy either when i saw online past year papers. 12 questions in 3 hours. actually more is better ah? haha

okok back to books again and i am beginning to feel the holiday mood liaoz. haha oh i was thinking about how i'm asking God to take all the 'I M' in my IMperfections, so that i will one day also learn to be like Jesus, the Perfect example without IM. like we always say, Here I M, Lord take all I M. I humble all I M. so yea all I M i give to You. take all of me

2007-04-02T17:40:00.000+08:00

oh yes! my bracers are finally off!!! woots!! now it's the retainer's stage, haha i must say it's kinda uncomfy for a while, but the cool thing is that my retainer's are like Daniel's one, the transparent kind. haha but i definately speak funny at times. but ah well doesn't matter kuz it's off finally! i tried smiling, but it feels weird also, then i have the bracers habit which is also weird since there isn't the extra load that fills the space in my mouth.

anyway was kinda tired also, took a short nap before started studying again. man seriously now i can't wait for exams to be over, next week will be hectic but this week already the 1 paper is keeping me busy too. when we hit the YC anniversary, it means that my exams are over. haha 14th Apr is long way still. for now it seems.

the fear of the Lord, what does it really mean? but going through the series with Dr Matt Rawlins is sure fun and also hard, but yea, our sinful side crosses path with God's Holiness. so much friction between it. God, can save the day and all will say, "My Glorious!"

2007-03-31T16:52:00.000+08:00

What does your drawing say about YOU?
The results of your analysis say:
You tend to pursue many different activities simultaneously. When misfortune does happen, it doesn't actually dishearten you all that much.You are a thoughtful and cautious person. You like to think about your method, seeking to pursue your goal in the most effective way.You like following the rules and being objective. You are precise and meticulous, and like to evaluate decisions before making them.You have a sunny, cheerful disposition.

not I, but He

2007-03-29T16:47:00.000+08:00

No one will know the Son except the Father and vice versa. Which means if you dunno who your Father is, you dunno what you're capable or your inheritance! As we freely received Christ into our hearts and we become brothers and sisters of Christ, then who is our Father? To receive freely, the power and authority to cast out demons and heal the sick which Jesus disciples did, have we not been freely giving? What He has shared with us through our quiet time and knowledge must be brought to light in motion. Therefore have we accepted Christ into our lives entirely to be able to work our faith out which pleases God? Because without faith, it is impossible to please God.

So well, it's not sit back and relax. But for us all who aren't moving much to rise above and get into our positions. let us be able to declare God freely and even though persecutions or mockery comes our way, it is for His Name sake, not ours.

Your will above all else, my purpose remain.

dream

2007-03-27T21:53:00.000+08:00

i had a dream, and i don't know how to interpret, but here it goes: I was late for school, somehow it felt like secondary school setting, but i was late, unsually. Slipped myself onto my seat and followed the lecture before it ended 5 mins later. From there i had to rush home to pack my stuff because i was going to China by train wth my family that evening. As i got on the train (a forwarded scene by no means) i was on the train and saw my lil brother sean, 7 year old and looked very cute. Then there was this close cousin of mine dressed in shiny black skin leather who look like a babe, of kuz i don't have a close cousin like that. Anyway later when entering into Russia, i had to contact army for my exit permit kuz i was away for 5 days. so weird how i thought of that, then i did the processing through the phone operator and next thing i was in chilly China and alighted off the train and had breakfast with my family.

After that i went up to the room to put my luggage and then went down to the alley downstairs, just as i opened the door to go outside, there was gun shooting and the hitman was trying to kill me. i saw a gun on the floor beside a dead person with rounds, picked it up and ran behind the car and started loading it, after that i corked the handgun and came out to shoot the guy. 3 shots and he was down, with no blood scene, i unloaded the rounds, threw the gun at him and walked away, that's when i woke up.

400 years

2007-03-25T22:57:00.000+08:00

have you wondered between the old testament and the new testament, how did it link? what was in between Malachi and Matthew? This sounds interesting huh? the bible have no records of the events that took place and what it happened. But did you know that God was doing things without bending the free will of man? the 400 years gap of unrecorded events in the bible that occur, but in world history, it happened. sounds interesting?

today was so hot i tell you, the weather first was really taking most of my energy away. good thing i had a second team of guys to take over, haha and also getting to know a new friend called Darren and playing with jacky was really fun! haha realised that Darren and i are the same, family not saved, but we're working on it yea?

today's message from Pastor Lilian was not the first time i heard it from her. But i cannot imagine if God's grace were to be lifted from us and we won't know it. This encourages the whole congregation to fear God in reverence and to make the church His dwelling place. amazing, guys, let us remain holy and striving to love and grow each other together! we're gonna be rising!!

dreams are made

2007-03-24T00:19:00.000+08:00

oh it's been 4 days, lol time flies and this week is a week of celebrating people's birthday! hehe queenie, eduard, daniel and today, it's miao!! happy birthday miaomiao!! i shall find a pic with you and post it up, but right now i can't seem to find any.

anyway yes for cell, Dr Paul White was talking about Dreams, actually i've heard this the 3rd time already but it's always so refreshing and amazing how God would choose to speak to us in many ways and dreams are really the most interesting and relaxing one kuz all you need to do is, sleep. yea so i'm gonna sleep now and got disciple class tmr. jarne!

Devotion

2007-03-20T13:42:00.000+08:00

Oh yea i like this new song, here are the lyrics and the song title is called Devotion.

I've been running trying to be one who sees
I've been working salvation out of my knees

there is nothing better than knowing

we are redeemed

I'm believing trusting in creative hands

I am praying for our world to bow to Your plan

and this one thought is unmistakeable

I take up my cross and follow You Lord

when You stand the tall trees and mountains bow
when You speak the fiercest of oceans is still

and I see sinners seek devotion

lost become chosen

and I fall to my knees

I'm forgiven by a Saviour who did not deserve death

He was blameless, when I was lost in shamefulness

I'm delivered but it doesn't seem right

unless I keep my eyes focused

On the Saviour who gave His life

in the middle of a world that denies it believes

it is breaking apart at the very seam

in this one thing to be alive for

and it's to take up my cross and follow You Lord

I will take up my cross and

follow Lord where You lead me

I will take up my cross

and follow wherever You go

In Jesus name, amen!

2007-03-19T22:20:00.000+08:00

it is done! ALL my assignments for the term is finished!! woohoo!!! and today we surprise queenie jie 3 times! hahaha today i was at home doing my work, and hoping she won't call me kuz we're suppose to go eat Sticky Chewy together but kuz jing had some other plans b4 she leaves tmr so yea we had to adjust a lil bit to fit the whole surprise in. i'm glad that she did enjoy herself although her birthday is tmr but surprise surprise!

exams is in 2 weeks time, how fast, now after assignment, it's time to prep for exams. haha school life is always so tedious yet fun and exciting. oh Lord, i commit my days to You, in this season, would You grant me favour with friends and also may my lifestyle be an impact to them. give me a tender heart to show care to those who needs it, may You eyes watch over me closely as i worship You each day with my daily living. In Jesus Name, Amen!

productive day

2007-03-17T23:26:00.000+08:00

alright! congratz sebastian zeng(lester & shi chang) older bro for getting married today! at least my day was productive. i came home after the wedding and took a short nap, almost didn't wake up in time to do work. managed to finished 3/5 questions for my assignment and probably finish it on monday since i have no school. i also just finished preparing my JYC worship for tmr. haha was telling sam like how come i always get worship leading during my most busy moment. well it's a privilege to lead worship, always a joy to bring people into the courts of our Almighty God and in coporate worship and unison.

well i can't really sleep now kuz of the afternoon nap. not sure if picking 2 unfamiliar songs and actually i've never sung or led any of the 3 before. but i felt God pushing me towards it. so yea Lord i believe and trust in You. alright i'm almost free from my school work and wanna hang out too. hope you all had a good week and see ya on sunday tmr!! jarne!

just a little bit more

2007-03-15T16:55:00.000+08:00

yes!! today i just handed in another assignment and now i left with tmr's presentation and 1 more assignment due on tues and it'll be over. then exams comes. lol but these past 2 mths has been stretching in terms of school work. but studying is always good yea? i thank God for giving me the opportunity to be able to study!

it's a thursday and i have just to prepare and compile some work stuff so that i can sleep well tonight. a lil tired right now but i cannot fall asleep like that too. everyone seems busy right now and i can't wait for tmr BBQ combined cell where i can just eat eat eat. i also want to try the Pizza Hut student meal soon! haha i think i'm on a food craze. maybe but it feels like it or now. alright i shall end here for today. days are just passing by faster don't you think?

subtitled

2007-03-13T20:40:00.000+08:00

[guitar strums]
(a man's voice breaks the silence)
O God, the Author of my life, my only Guide, where do You want me to go from here?

(God speaks)
My child, don't go any further now from Me, wait upon Me and heed my Voice when I call.

(man)
Yes Father, I will do as You say, because I don't want to disobey You anymore.

[guitar faints to plucking strings]
(man cries out passionately)
'I love You, all of my hope is in You. Jesus Christ, take my life, take all of me!'

[tears flow down his cheeks]
[silence]

short entry

2007-03-12T23:10:00.000+08:00

What is internet governance? well, that's an essay to write on. i'm only halfway and i need a lil bit more just to wrap it up nicely. i woke up at 10 this morning, amazing it's been a while since i had a 12hrs sleep. haha today really had nothing much, just that going to class and receiving more work to do which i think i will do it tmr either morning or when i return home from class.

i was thinking about death on the way to school. like i really don't want to see anyone else closer to me to go away, it's painful and i dunno ever since after fei's passing, i not sure if my treshold is able to withstand any more. only God peace would grant me that release. then again i hope not to pass away first or any of my friends too, wish we could all go up together at the same time. which means apocolyspe. haha nah. anyway the weeks are passing really fast. means my braces will be coming off soon! woots! can't wait for it to come off. and lionel, next time you cannot ask me when it's coming off liaoz...ho ho ho

Kum Yan 89th Anniversary

2007-03-11T21:36:00.000+08:00

i must say, i'm very very tired. i think the capt ball today took all of me. haha but i kinda enjoyed the XO sliced fish noodles just beside Allson Hotel. yummy at least a good meal to end the day even if it cost $7 per bowl, but can definately taste the XO. haha but yea it was a really really hot day, think that's what drained my energy.oh and benW i hope you're better. do take care ok and may His healing hand grant you the comfort and quick healing too!

anyway today in church service was a dedication & anniversary service! yayy and our church is 89 years old! i hope that we all will be going on and on until like we're 130th anniversary or something, the close friends, the funny and weird stories that happens to us. the different nose-digging technique(which jiahao specialises in), and all the learning and breaking in ourselves. to stick together as a family and grow old and strong in faith, through Christ Jesus our Lord who strengthens us! i love the mug!

yea i'm gonna head to bed now, too tired to do anything. i should rest my body and not overwork them by staying up and sleep later. goodnight and may our hearts unite in His likeness and continue to love God and our neighbours as ourselves! God bless!!

from the inside out

2007-03-11T00:53:00.000+08:00

a thousand times i've failed
but still Your mercy remains
and should i stumble again
but still i'm caught in Your grace

Everlasting

Your light will shine when all else fades

Neverending

Your glory goes beyond all fame

in my heart in my soul

i give You control

consume me from the inside out, Lord

let justice & praise

become my embrace

to love You from the inside out

Your will above all else

my purpose remains

the art of losing myself

in bringing You praise

this is the day

2007-03-08T18:41:00.000+08:00

This is the day You made

So I will lift my voice and give You praise

This is the day You made
So I will lift my voice and give You praise

You are worthy

Lord when You are glorified

My heart is satisfied to know that

All praise and honour are Yours

And when all creation sing

To You the King of kings we know that

All praise and honour are Yours

today auntie may have gone back to the Lord. i remember the times when i was younger and she find myself and some of the others as well a nusiance and how we teens were not responsible and always so playful. but in the later years, she trusted us more as we became also more mature and her heart for us grew as we say hi and in this family, helped one another. thank You auntie may for loving us, and thank You for also reaching out to us. we all love you

how wonderful!

2007-03-07T22:20:00.000+08:00

i was really glad to hand in the assignment this morning. although i woke up late and good thing the presentation got pushed forward kuz of the lack of time. phew i wasn't really prepared though. friends prepared like 15-20 slides for a 10 mins presentation on VoIP solution while i had 5 slides and was talking about the future of the technology when singapore goes WiFi. haha definately His grace was all over me. even in this. came home after school and played WOW. feels good after not really playing for quite a while. hee

after on i left home to meet lionel matt and benW for dinner at Bugis before getting the cake and head down to church to pull a surprise at Jing as she was having Teen leaders meeting. Operation: bongbongbash. Successful! haha happy birthday dear sister! she still looks the same when i met her at 13. 11 years, still look the same.

the skies are heavy

2007-03-06T22:14:00.000+08:00

Yes!! i have finished one of my assignment and all i need to do is present tmr and i'm done! woohoo!! but it only means 1 down. haha still got another 3 more to finish before exams. haha well spent the afternoon doing it and was able to finish it at 5pm. to meet them for dinner at chinatown to eat claypot. sadly, the stalls were closed and it was raining heavily, didn't seem like 1 of our good days for makan. haha then we walked to find the 'Yu Pian Mee Fen' and also sadly it's closed. in the end we went to this alright dim sum place. it was ok until the blackout, haha and it's nice to see Sam back too, with her hyperventilating agonising laughter. there were some tired faces today and even for myself, but a dinner with friends is always so good.

the word i got today was 'lean'. the first thing that came to my mind was the verse in Proverbs 3 where it says to not lean on your own understanding. but actually what God was telling me was to Lean on Him. so comforting for me even when i do feel the stretch in doing my work, but to be in His embrace leaves me speechless with a rested mind. thank You Lord, my Shepherd.

Unfailing Love

2007-03-04T23:05:00.000+08:00

yes!!! finally get to play captain's balL!! i really enjoyed it as a workout and also just having fun, been doing my work so this kinda thing is really relaxing to me. haha oh the worse thing that happened today was when this morning JYC worship and after we got into the song and worship and came to the last song Everyday, started off well but after 1st verse i had finger cramps and i could hardly press the fret already. lol was a lil pain but i tried enduring it, haha oh well i need more practice, playing the song in B not funny after the earlier power songs. now i shall type the lyrics of the song that is in my heart, means so much after today's message by Dr Matt Rawlins, about how precious, how valuable we are to Christ Jesus our Lord and Saviour.

You have my heart And I am Yours forever You are my strength God of grace and power And everything You hold in Your hand Still You make time for me I can't understand Praise You God of Earth and sky How beautiful is Your unfailing love Unfailing love And You never change God You remain The Holy One My unfailing love Unfailing love

assignments....

2007-03-03T20:49:00.000+08:00

saturdays are the best days to catch up with all your work! but also means i'll be unable to go for Power Hour which is the best hour of the week also. i need a more free saturday. well anyway today i spent most of the time reading on VoIP which is like your internet phone calls, the future of telephones. have to get a 3000 word essay by wed and today was just gathering the final info before i start. before that on top of it, i was doing my other assignment which is due this monday but thanks to my friend who introduced SmartDraw, i'm able to speed things up than using Microsoft Word to create tables and stuff.

sharon too is over at my place doing her assignment, with wireless internet, my house can be a nice place to study with your laptop being connected anywhere in the house. muahahaha wireless is good! i would like to have a laptop on my own so when i go out to do my work i wouldn't have to bother her to carry her laptop down. but thank you girlfriend!! you're always so sweet to aid me. well she has a lot to read and here i am taking time off after hours of reading myself not knowing how time go by.

i hope to play capt ball tmr and it's anton's birthday also. have cell core meeting and i really wanna play capt ball. well hope it won't take long either hehe. anyway this is today's post. jarne! and see you all at church tmr!!

my new template!!

2007-03-01T23:36:00.000+08:00

this morning, when we heard that the format we used was not correct, we all got stunned. yea handing in assignment and hearing that on the other ear was shocking. my friend and i decided to stay back after school to finish it. we both took a good 3 hours to edit and arrange before spending another $2 on printing and then finally handed it up at 5pm, when the lecturer was about to leave, phew. It has been raining since morning.

well came back to find sharon in my room, she was doing her work on her laptop which i borrowed, hehe she looked tired after so much reading, but nevertheless, her will to go on and on kept her focussed on completing it.

the hype of the day was to spend time with our good friend Andy aka yandao who will be getting his 'A' level results tmr. the funny thing is, we had jdj for dinner before going over to Gelatos for more food and dessert. we totally had a cool time talking and laughing at some jokes, and old ones as well and found out a bit more about each other. it was hilarious talking in a nice cosy place with a Karaoke upstairs going on. Yingnuo thought a Table Tennis Bat has holes in it like a badminton racket while Vic is still finding hard to coordinate some moves. Lionel enjoys making fart sound in his under arm while matt keeps flicking others. my brother looks tired and Ben wu enjoys putting his arm around chairs esp. miao is trying to be not so loud as before and andy eyes grew big when he hears '9 years old'. haha thank You God for friends!

lastly i want to thank the young and upcoming girl prodigy, yingnuo for doing up this blog for me, where things seems impossible, the blog queen does it again. thank you yingnuo for taking time to look for this template for me and to meet to all my lil requests as well. very much appreciated! so much to read, hope you enjoy this entry! time for some Heroes!

at the library.

2007-02-27T23:44:00.000+08:00

i have managed to finish doing most of my research at the library today and all the info are gathered, now i just have to put it in softcopy form and print it out. hahaha it is done! today was fulfilling, never really spent time at the library and i find a laptop very very useful.thank you sharon for lending it to me.
alright, after that i went to church for a while just to chill out kuz the quietness of the library got to me and i felt i just wanted to be somewhere else where i find comfortable. hang out there for a while before heading to Chinatown to have dinner with my dad and his company. the food was kinda alright only, not say that fantastic but i enjoyed the sharks' fin the most, that's all and i ate more vegetable than meat, surprisingly. Came back home at around 1030pm. couldn't go for JYC meeting either haha well anyway i had a nice and simple day and i hope to take my braces off soon! can't wait either, anyway i'm gonna sleep soon too, got a test tmr and also gotta finish off my assignment before handing it up on thurs. Goodnight world!

Your will above all else....

2007-02-26T20:36:00.000+08:00

I think i've been made fun of the girls too much that i dreamt that Singapore was snowing and i had to wear a coat. haha today spent the whole afternoon at the library, can't believe i ever do this but yea researching on Internet Government. Interesting topic yet it seems very 1 sided still. Anyway couldn't meet jie for Sticky Chewy chocolate. Simon flew back to Perth today. My peers, come back soon! Growing with my peers away in a foreign land somehow raised the inside of me differently and learning that your friends at your teens, will grow up.

Anyway yes Monday went by too fast for me to remember much. What if i were to go away for 3 years? wow must be hard even now for me kuz of the close friendships i've made recently, treasuring it and not also wanting to leave here but joining my peers are also fun. But then again, that would be my selfish side, i need to be selfless.

So conclusion, be there for my friends here, no matter what, if God doesn't open a door to anywhere, don't force it open.

painful foot

2007-02-24T23:54:00.000+08:00

don't you wish sometimes you could just sleep in a lil but more? haha anyway today soccer match at Everton Park, we won 2-0, could have been 3 if my lob was on target. anyway i got kinda injured during the early part of the game and now my right foot is slowly swelling and my ankle too is kinda stiff. well now i can't play capt ball tmr either and guess i can spend a bit of time stuyding also.

was in church doing the JYC games and i think tmr it's gonna be fun! am excited and with matt the overall games IC, he did a great job! very organised. can see he is definately growing and usually when you're active in church, that's where your growth spurts. alright i'm gonna sleep now, JYC BRUNCH OUT!!! here we come!!!

For who You are

2007-02-22T23:22:00.000+08:00

This song has been in my head the whole time. I've been singing it and it speaks about where i am with God now, just gazing and being thankful and just praising Him.

Standing here in Your presence

Thinking of the good things You have done

Waiting here patiently

Just to hear Your still small voice again

Holy

Righteous

Faithful to the end

Saviour

Healer

Redeemer and Friend

I will worship You

For who You are

My soul secures

Your promise sure

Your love endures

Always

Jesus Christ, i thank You for what You have done for me, that i may be able to stand in the courts of the Most High and freely worshipping God. I will worship You for who You are, not only because of what You've done, but for Your unfailing love for me, always.

6 things....

2007-02-21T14:53:00.000+08:00

This is what you are supposed to cut and paste if you decide to participate in the tagging game. Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. After you do that, leave them each a comment letting them know you tagged them and to read your blog

1: People say i hold my spoon weird.

2: i love to sleep on my stomach on the bed.

3: i used to memorize all the cool japanese lines in King of Fighters and recite to no one and think it's cool.

4: i enjoy watching Operation on human body or anything, that's why my leg tissue minor opt i requested to be awake to see the process.

5: i saw my teacher's panties, because her skirt dropped right in front of me.

6: i would like to live in a condominium and own a dog.

3rd Day

2007-02-20T23:14:00.000+08:00

Thank you all firstly for coming over to my place for visiting! although my dad and mom wasn't home most of the time(usually the case) but you all sure know how to occupy yourself and well hope you all too enjoyed eating, playing boggle, and gunbullet on my small tv. haha my mom says she always like my friends kuz their so funny and brings laughter to the house. so to all you out there that came to bless my household, a big thanks! hopefully soon in His time that the spiritual walls in my house will come down and may my mom dad and 2nd bro get saved! pizza was something unusual for us this CNY kuz mom couldn't get the Char Siew sauce to make our favourite HK noodle. oh well next time bAs! hehe

Yarpz so happy Chinese new year to you all! and for most of the others, work starts tmr but not for me! haha we're gonna have meeting for the games this sunday in JYC. hehe so fun planning! i'm gonna watch Heroes and enjoy the show, haha see ya!

WOW, goodbye and OK!

2007-02-19T23:48:00.000+08:00

today 2nd day of chinese new year, i stayed home first to tend to my mom's guest for a while before in the later afternoon, adjorn my way to sharon's dad house. the dog, i think his name is Kobe, is so so lazy. i tried to play with him, jump here and there but to no avail the dog only got up and turned and lay down the other way, how lazy can 1 be. then sharon came and ask me to come and meet the dad, and when i saw him, omg, he is way too cool. ponytailed hair and tanned skin. Way opposite of sharon from what i know, but i must say, when he went to change, it was super Retro. My brother sean who was there at the site was shocked to see the mom yesterday and the dad today, words to describe in character is 'worlds apart'. Her dad look way much younger than the mom, i think he is very hip.

Anyway after that had to send my buddy off to the airport, we've been good buddies because i think of cell and our openness as well, it helped grow and mature the friendship we have so far. i must say, take care budz and may your light so shine before man!

Lastly, we went to jiahao's place to visit his parents and to also hang out there. My brother drank so much, well maybe that his face was so red! haha but he isn't drunk so that's good, we shouldn't be. played pool there and i realised how out-of-touch i've become. Gosh but anyway i had fun and then had to go home earlier than usual kuz of tmr also. if not mom will give me a good one. haha that's all for now. hope you all have a very blessed new year!!! God bless!!

Spring Cleaning

2007-02-17T18:14:00.000+08:00

alright! finished my thorough cleaning of my room. Wiping the dust of shelves and restoring order in my room, but it gets dusty fast. well anyway i know that my mom would be happy even when she didn't ask me to do anything, but i know that she is glad inside, knows that i am responsible too. hee.

i was looking through most of my stuff and found many old stuff from sec school till now, will keep some but the papers i'll just throw it all away. some memories still remains and some that i forgot came back up to me. i wouldn't say i wanna avoid it, it was there so i could learn valuable lessons of my past and to acknowledge God's guidance and sufficient grace to where i am now.

chinese new year starts tmr! and unlike 10 years ago, i don't have that many relatives to visit, it's kinda like that when you grow older but i know that going visiting with friends are always fun and exciting! to bless the families as they receive us and for me, to brush up on my chinese phrases, (someone help me out pls).

i would also like to dedicate this day to the one and only, Mervyn Soon! Happy Birthday brother and no, thank you for the love and friendship too! will pray for your heart to remain soft and your EYES to open. hehe anyway i'm off here, dad buying KFC back for me kuz he was shocked to see my cleaning. haha and for your info, Naruto new season rocks!! start watching!!

a day at matthew's house

2007-02-15T22:42:00.000+08:00

We didn't get to play TC3!!! haha miao forgot to bring the disc. haha i hope to play it soon though. anyway overall it was fun, trying to play the guitar game was crazy also, not cut out for this. think one of the most fun game we played was 'Name Game of Death' where i've seen so many things i didn't know like short forms and actions. lionel mermaid pose was priceless. it will still remain in my mind for the whole time. didn't know also britney spears action is 1 finger and anna nicole smith....is....well haha.

anyway for all you guys that we had fun with, it was enjoyable and i had fun today. love the group very much although the rest were not here also like ben wu, andy, shawn may who were suppose to come and join us. haha maybe during CNY you can bring the guns over and we can play. think my tv is big enough if you don't have people's place to go to. CNY my bro and i are mostly free la so yea it'll be fun.

i'm very thankful to God for this break too, really needed it from school stuff. although yes i've still got to think of assignment, but for now, i'm just gonna have fun. hee peace out!

Psalm 27:4 Amplified

2007-02-14T21:10:00.000+08:00

One thing have I asked of the Lord, that will I seek, inquire for, and [insistently] require: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord [in His presence] all the days of my life, to behold and gaze upon the beauty [the sweet attractiveness and the delightful loveliness] of the Lord and to meditate, consider, and inquire in His temple

a friend indeed

2007-02-14T00:31:00.000+08:00

james, although sometimes i don't say much either, i will miss your presence and also all the weird and fun things we always do. thanks for always being so caring and spontaneous too. love you brother and see you when you get back.

Forever

2007-02-14T00:13:00.000+08:00

i worship at Your Throne

whisper my own love song

with all my heart i'll sing

for You my Dad and King

i live for all my days

to put a smile on Your Face

and when we finally meet

it'll be for eternity

and oh how wide You open up Your arms

when i need Your love and how far You would come

if ever i was lost You said that all You feel for me

is undying love

that You should me through the Cross

i worship You my God

i love You, i love You

Forever i will sing

Forever i will be with You

Be with You

friends that stays

2007-02-12T23:38:00.000+08:00

today apart from doing computing fundamentals (maths) the whole afternoon. i enjoyed my evening the most, hanging out with the people i grew up with, going through the many altar calls when we were in our teens and to have this friendship remain even after going different ways as we age. it was still so fun and reminds me when we were younger. i really enjoyed the company of them all. but not all was there, but at least i knew that we are where we were when we made that commitment to God to take up leadership.

I remember moments where we were afraid when we were 17 and all, and God came and told us about time to give, time to grow deeper not by receiving only, but by giving. Leadership was waiting for us to embrace it, we were all scared, but we were willing. i thank God for my friends that i could grow up with, to help and encourage one another when we fall. God only you made it all possible.

i believe that the next gen of leaders are coming up really soon. i remember ian and reg did tell us to join the team and see how God is able to reach to people. haha i would want to tell the younger ones that to not be afraid but join us as we grow the generation and after.

All I need is You

2007-02-12T18:32:00.000+08:00

Left my fear by the side of the road

Hear You speak I won't let go

Fall to my knees as I lift my hands to pray

Got every reason to be here again

The Father's love that draws me in

All my eyes wanna see is a glimpse of You

All I need is You

All I need is You Lord

Is You Lord

One more day and it's not the same

Spirit calls my heart to sing

Drawn to the voice of my Saviour once again

Where would my soul be without Your Son

He gave His life to save the earth

Rest in the thought that You're watching over me

genki-dez?

2007-02-11T22:28:00.000+08:00

BenFong: 'You must be expressive when you say jap'
Lionel: 'Oohh, watashi lionel-dez'
BenFong: 'That's just so gay'

LOL ben was sending us home in his new car and the dialogue was really funny because the way lionel expressed it wasn't like how a jap would do but more like....hahahah. vicky flew off today. and i'm busy with my work, but i'm happy with a grp i hanging with, just having fun and building deep friendships.

today sam at JYC seemed very curious to know who was 'the one' for her. lol actually i guess she was asking to also let others know that it is only God is the only one. good sam! i didn't misinterpret it, just wanted to have fun. anyway was curious how come you came up too, were you curious? haha anyway i'm gonna end my blog for today here. goodnight all! God bless!!!

oh blog...

2007-02-10T15:48:00.000+08:00

wah i'm still trying to get the hang of this blogger thing, a lot of things can't work and i can't visit Kelsie, Lim Xi and Lionel's blog, the rest so far on the list are possible. oh well hope it gets better. anyway yea i'll try to remain active here too. so hope we all get to know each other better even through here. God bless you all and it's sunday tmr!!

alright, at least now i got something going. if i can get a nicer skin would be good. but for now, i'll just add names. hehe

today morning soccer match was fun, although it was really hot, and my toenail came off. so now at least my big toe doesn't hurt anymore. doing math on a saturday sure isn't exciting. but oh well, just a few more to go.

my empty blog

2007-02-08T14:43:00.000+08:00

hello all, i have no idea how to use this but i am figuring this out. feel so noob but anyway yea thought it was easy.